so, i was writing this huge post on romantic love - talking about it has action, mystery and common experience. but then i had a conversation with a good friend of mine (thanks, lauren!), and i realized something. the most complex things in the universe, in human experience, are most potent when simply expressed.
is it love when i get her off my mind? that every time i open my phone i desperately want to call her - to get to know her and her crazy ideas. there must be secrets to discover. but i don't know. i don't know anymore. people are complex; we are people. what is there between people? does anyone ever understand it?
there is too much in the past that it crowds out the future. all the mistakes i have made. it would be love to forgive those mistakes. to take me as a broken individual that together, as broken individuals, we could make a beautiful story, together.
and i am thinking about what sarah said - love is watching someone die. so who's going to watch you die?
2 comments:
I'm not sure you're right to thank me. But I will agree with you on simplicity.
It is love because you think about her. She won't ever be truly off your mind anymore than God is. There are secrets to discover. That's what life is for. Discover those secrets. Everything and nothing is between people. Yes, we're incredibly complex with emotions. But our needs are remarkably simple. God understands that. And I think we need the complexity we create between ourselves. After all, we were made to have relationships with one another. We're meant to complicate and be complex. What would life be without a little complexity?
No, the mistakes of your past don't crowd the future. They make your future. Without every little mistake you've ever made, you wouldn't be the person you are meant to be. The one God wants you to be.
You will find her. She will love you for your mistakes and you hers. Your two beautiful stories that have been wonderful totally separate will be even more fantastic and brilliant together.
I think it's less about who is going to watch you die here than who will watch you enter your new life up there. It won't be just your loves. It'll be so much more than that.
I love you Jeremy :)
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